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where the line between my pen and mind's at war

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Jul. 30th, 2010 | 05:45 pm
mood: draineddrained
music: How did I get here? - Meg & Dia

I’ve decided that writing is a gift and a curse.

It’s conflicting…to get annoyed that something keeps you up at night that you just have to get it down…to get mad at yourself for the one time you forget to keep a pen or scrap of paper in your bag…to obsess over something only you will care about…

And then miss it all when the inspiration stops coming.

I want to write something amazing. And not to sound full of it, but I want to do it for me. Not to prove someone wrong or to make a name or anything, but to do what I love, create something I love, tell a story worth knowing, to fulfill some unconscious need I have to show myself that I can do my best. To know that I have a best.

I wonder if I even make sense anymore.

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jen

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from: cut_thestring
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 02:14 am (UTC)
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to obsess over something only you will care about
Yeah, this.

'Writer's block' sounds so flippant. It's frustrating, wanting to write something, but not be able to. Or having it all in your head, but the words just not coming out right. Or just plain not having inspiration. Which is probably the worst.

I want to write something amazing too. Just for the sake of writing something amazing. ): Basically, a big THIS to your post.

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Johanna

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from: reverie_405
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 10:28 am (UTC)
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yeah, i think not having inspiration is the worst D:

and i never realized just how much 'writer's block' doesn't cover it until you said that. kudos.

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hellodanika

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from: hellodanika
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 03:52 am (UTC)
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preach woman.

i agree with everything. i'm in the middle of this one story, and i get so frustrated and annoyed by it, but i KNOW that if i decide to stop, i'm going to miss it and hate myself for not continuing. and not to sound full of it either, but i acually think this idea is a good one. so everytime i even think about maybe giving up on it, i always shake my head and remind myself why i decided to actually go through with it: i owe it to myself to work towards something that comes from my heart that i love with all my being. i need to do this for me. i don' even care if no one likes it. lol. i just want to do it for myself.

on writing being a curse, one night i got inspiration for a screenplay, and i had to get in and out of bed multiple times to get up and write down my sudden ideas coz i was afraid i'd forget them in the morning XD

you're right: writing is a gift and a curse. but to be honest, i can't see myself loving and doing anything else as much as i love writing. lol.

WRITERS FOREVER~ lol.

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Johanna

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from: reverie_405
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 04:39 am (UTC)
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whoops. ignore my other comment. i was stilled logged in as my RPS haha

*hugs you*

yup. during THWBIA i got out of bed multiple times and i know i'll be disappointed if i don't finish what i'm working on. lol you seriously just wrote like the epilogue to this post with your comment xD. love you twintwin!

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Johanna

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from: reverie_405
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 04:40 am (UTC)
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..and by rps i mean rpg xD excuse me while i go fail at life..

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hellodanika

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from: hellodanika
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 07:46 am (UTC)
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*hugs back*

lol. i hate getting ideas in bed coz you're all nice and comfy but then you HAVE to get up coz you know you're never gonna remember it clearly the next day XD i used to keep a journal by my bed, but i misplaced it. ishould go find that... =P

i wish you luck in your story and that, when you finish, it is something you are proud of =] you can do it, bb! ♥

totally forgot about the rpg form. lol. should i still join?

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Johanna

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from: reverie_405
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 08:40 am (UTC)
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haha ikr? why can't i get these ideas when i'm not trying to sleep? i used to keep a journal too..which i misplaced when i moved to SF haha so now i have random scraps of paper...that i end up misplacing, too. oops.

i wish you luck too! :D

haha yes, if you still want to!

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Megyn

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from: pengyn
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 09:56 am (UTC)
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I definitely understand what you mean. I often wish I could write more, just so I can sit down and believe that I'm any good at it. The less I write, the more I believe that actually I'm not so eloquent.

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Johanna

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from: reverie_405
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 10:20 am (UTC)
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exactly. that's what i'm feeling right now. although, i think you have nothing to worry about. your fics are amazing.

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Megyn

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from: pengyn
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 11:26 am (UTC)
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I think that you feel the same way about my fics that I feel about other people's. I don't read a lot of fanfic because I often don't have the time (my book mark list is a mile long and I've only cracked the surface) - but when I do read something I kind of tend to go "Man I wish I could do something like that." I know what people have said about my fics, but I still have a hard time believing it.

I hope you find your way, writing wise. Being in a slump is the worst!

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Even artichokes have hearts

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from: lormats
date: Jul. 31st, 2010 01:54 pm (UTC)
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Girl I feel so identified with you just wrote... it totally makes sense... sometimes you just had to rest a little bit and the muse will came back :)

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